The Struggle...

I went to Brooke White's Myspace page today and there were several blogs that she had written long before American Idol. And I broke down in tears because she was writing exactly how I feel.

This music biz has been my nemesis and best friend since I was 14...there's nothing I love more and there's nothing more frightening than trying to make this happen. I am overwhelmingly grateful for everyone that supports this little girl with a big dream, and I am incredibly blessed to be able to do something daily that I am passionate about. I know this now, but...

Last year, when I had my "quarterlife crisis", I really questioned why I'm pursuing this career. My poor husband had a depressed wife for about 6 months. He certainly didn't deserve that and I didn't deserve to be giving my all for something that was breaking my fragile heart.

Here is a song I wrote when I was struggling with my emotions:



These lyrics pretty much sum everything up:
"I DON'T REGRET THIS LIFE I HAVE LIVED
FOR I HAVE KNOWN LOVE, SWEET LOVE
AND BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS
THOUGH WHERE I AM NOW
IS NOT WHERE I THOUGHT
I AM UNWORTHY OF QUESTIONING GOD"